Class A Bitch

Warning: This post may not be suitable for all ages. Personal Caution is advised!

Okay I call myself a Bitch, it's true I am one. Don't think so? Then go ahead and read. Still advising that you should just probably wait for the next post though, this really is just for one person but...it seems like I have fallen off the face of the earth aqording to them.

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I put everything on the line, told you things I have never told ANYONE. Yeah I f*cked up, really big. I not only f*cked things up on my side but on yours too. I caused too much pain. But holy sh*t! I remember hearing someone say something about being a Best(lol almost said Breast) Friend. How the f*ck am I supposed to be any kind of friend when 1. I don't know what the f*ck is going on, and 2. YOU WONT EVEN TALK TO ME?!?! Don't you think even a short e-mail explaining your temorary loss of words to me would help?!
I never realised how easy it was to loose a friend you thought would be there for the rest of your life. But maybe this is just my personalitiy. Soon enough everyone tells me to GTFO. Jesus Christ I have never been mad at you once before in all of my knowing you. But this really hits it hard. Not even a "I don't want to talk to you". You just throw me off MSN and act like I don't exsist hoping that I will feel the same way. Well let me tell you something, IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I didn't lie when I said those things *name*! So don't even try telling yourself that I did. All I ask for is enough RESPECT for AT LEAST seven WORDS "I don't want to talk to you."!!!!
And if that's not how you feel you aren't showing it well, let me tell ya. I have been sitting here for two days(almost straight through!) wondering what the f*ck is going on. She may hate me but atleast she'll SPEAK to me! You must really hate me beyond words, great you and Ryan have something in common.

F*CK F*CK F************************CK!

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I have lots more to say but it is no long appropriate at this time or ever. Is it too bad of me to ask for some answers?

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Scripting my own rants now, Jesus Christ I need a life.

Pessimistic Views of Life...oh joy

What if I'm the bad guy?

: )

Sparks of hope...

There is nothing like a good Fantasy Romance to spark the idea that maybe...just maybe, there is some tiny bit of hope for happiness. Why are all the good men: taken, gay or completely fictional?! Not to mention that the character I am talking about is(is that...hmm nvm), a VAMPIRE! But geez, I mean come on. Is there really such thing as "Happily Ever After"? Okay even if there isn't is there such thing as happiness under the same roof with someone of the opposite sex? Maybe I should go get my fortune told to me. LOL. One day I will wake up and find happiness within what I have now, an 11 yr old and a 2 yr old...who cares about anything else? All I know is I am not getting any younger here and my heart aches....

New Project...

I have yet to finish my nerdy project but have come to a bump in the road. But since I have invested in a wonderful scanner, I am now off to my new project. We'll see how it goes. Time to learn how to PS color scanned pictures...woooo. :\

A few ideas on a title for a comic of Penguin Villains would help...indeed.

Huzzah! *clicks heels*

The Artistic mind of Jackie will be her downfall

Few and far between do you find decent ones. Although I seem to be lucky enough to have found a couple. Which is nice indeed.

Sometimes I wonder if I would see my life as any better if I didn't have these scenarios of a different life all the time. Sometimes I see my curiosity and imagination as a curse. Although I love my artistic...yes aRtistic...mind, picturing some long lost forgotten land, beautiful landscapes, wonderful smiles, and happy people. I wake up in the now and I remember that my mind can't take my body with it.

How do you keep your mind from wandering?

Just for you...