You never realize how much you love someone until they are gone. Tonight was the first night Samantha grieved. It was hard to be strong for her, and it was harder to answer her questions. How do you answer: Why is life not fair? Why did God take her and make the rest of us sad? Why do we have to die?
I may not be as spiritual as I used to be, but Thank God for having Him in my life. I can't imagine trying to deal with a death like this and not having God in your life. When things got too bad for me he sent me someone to help me. And wow...all I can truley and honestly say from this point on is that God never gives you more then you can handle and Everything happens for a reason whether it be good or bad. I may not have the answers but I know who does, and I trust Him enough to let me know the answers when I am ready.
I thank all my family and friends that have given Sam and I their thoughts and prayers. Life is hard alone. Thank God I have a wonderful family and great friends. I may not have many friends but the ones I do have are real friends, and I know I can trust them with anything. And I know that if others can love me that much, I can too. A work in progress...
I miss you Mamma...I know you are still here but it's not the same. It never will be. I am glad you are happy and aren't hurting anymore. I know you will be waiting for me, and I will hug you then. I love you.
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AWWW,Jackie, gosh im all teary. Im so sorry with everything going on. but as you said He is the one in Charge. It makes me think of Hebrews, you should go read it then go read Rev. 21-22. They are ALL about our Hope of him coming back and the hope of seeing our loved ones again (the resurrection)...Maybe this helps a little bit, love ya and you two are in my prayers...
Ash
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